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Earlier today I had a reflective moment where I wonder about my capabilities as a person, to be more specific about my decision making skills. I had recently let go of a perfectly wonderful opportunity about a month ago, an interview for a job at a good reputable company on my semester break. I didn't go because, I simply did not want to. Now at this point you might think I am an idiot with poor decision making skills but to each his own I suppose. The reason I didn't take it is because I have never wanted such a job. I only applied to appease my parents to be honest and I think even they knew that. I did went on to work eventually (I am not completely useless :P) during my semester break at an online fashion company. Which was a good learning experience for me because I got to see what the real world is like.

You know I thought that whatever I learnt in school or university would be enough and it would equip me for the work life. Boy, was I wrong... the working life was completely different than what I thought it would be. It required me to be completely independent and most of the time, I was feeling lost and thus fear ensued. Fears about my capabilities as a person, fears about my future, and fears about whether I have fully embraced life and tried to learn and try to get as much as I possibly can out of this life that has been given to me. Why is this even relevant for this post, you might ask? Well, because I am a third year psychology student and as graduation looms closer you sort of start to think about what you want to do for the rest of your life (well in my case, besides pursuing a career as a psychologist) and in short about the future. Not forgetting the fact that I also might be getting married soon.

When I started to ruminate about the future, I started to think about who I am, what are my passions and my goals in life.  Now, anyone who knows me dearly would know that I am not the kind of person to stick to something in life because its what society tells me I should do. No, throughout my life I have always tried to stay true to myself and my principles by doing only the things that resonated with who I am as a person.  Although sometimes I might have had to sacrifice the things I love because my parents didn't approve of it or what not but most of the major decisions I took, the ones that had a major impact in my life and the ones that I predicted will alter the course of my life, whatever hobbies and passion of mine I did it not for the attention, or money, popularity or even approval from others. I do something simply because it makes me happy.  I know this sounds very selfish but someone wise once told me that every aspect of your life is interconnected. (Actually that someone was Larry Smith an Economics professor, and he didn't tell me, I saw his talk on Ted.com.) With that in mind, let's say if you were not happy with your job or your love life, it would have affected other aspects of your life. For example if I was not happy with my job and I brought that dissatisfaction home it would have somehow in some small way affected who I am as a daughter and as a sibling. Now imagine, if I was happy with my career highly likely I would have brought that peace of mind into my home and everyone feeds of my happy energy and in short everyone benefited. It would have been a win-win situation. So with that logic in mind, I realized that I should start to do the things that make me happy. Like writing.

I love writing. I always have. Even if no one would read my posts or my blog, I'd still write because I thoroughly enjoy writing and I will never stop writing. I might not use fancy words or sound intelligent or simply make any sense at all but I write anyway because it feels good to me.

That is why I decided to start this blog because it gives me the chance to express myself through my writing. So after I decided to start a blog, quite naturally I started to think about what I should write about in this blog. One obvious answer came to mind, since I spend most days looking at beauty product reviews, countless numbers of tutorials and swatches, and whenever I'm feeling bad I would just lock myself in my room and watch makeup tutorials like there's no tomorrow. (I know I'm a bit of a freak, :P)  I decided that I shall write about my other passion which is beauty and makeup. Then I also thought to myself, why not talk about other stuff too since it gives me an excuse to spend more time doing what I love to do, which is writing.

So this blog will essentially be a medium (a safe haven, if you may) where I can write my thoughts on all of the things I am passionate about or the things I love and enjoy doing. So, having said that, let me clarify that I'm no beauty expert and none of my future reviews or tips are remotely professional but you know what, what the heck, I'll write anyway, why so serious, right? That is why I chose topics like makeup, fashion, and lifestyle because I believe that it should be about experimenting, about expressing yourself and about having fun! That is how I came up with the name of the blog, Urban Hippie.

Urban Dictionary describes an Urban Hippie as someone who incorporates urban and hippie lifestyle, they are not afraid to speak their liberal mind and they can sound intelligent but is also well versed in street lingo. So, in a nutshell I believe I am an Urban Hippie because I'm constantly in a struggle to integrate my rather hippie-ish (is that a word? o.O) approach to life with the pressures of living in a modern globalized world. The KL in the url signifies where I'm from which is Kuala Lumpur, the capital city of Malaysia, because despite my hatred for its busy streets and sweltering heat I cant deny the fact that I love this city, plus it's very important to remember where you come from right? :)

So there you have it! Welcome to my blog, where I will have beauty related posts, fashion, entertainment and generally posts about life. Again, i'm sticking to that life-is-interconnected philosophy and that's why I decided that this blog should not only focus on beauty related stuff. I will try to have a new post every Saturday. Hahaha. TRY. Let me rephrase that, I will do my best to have a new post up every Saturday night. Imagine that,  every Saturday night I will spend some time in my room, forming sentences for people to read about the stuff I love. That's the life eh? :) Just me, my thoughts and the clicking noise from my laptop keyboard. What's not to love? :) *shrieks like a girl*

Lany Zabidin | Urban Hippie KL